I’m exhausted chief

[M22] Im tired. Ive just been losing friends year after year. Sure people grow apart but those were drama filled loses. People just take advantage of my generosity. Then treat me like shit when they don’t need me.

Not everyone though. I got couple of good friends but any time I want to do something I’m met with “no I can’t be bothered”, “I’m too busy”, “Not today bro”. Some friendships have started to feel one sided.

I’m tired of picking up my phone and having no one to message. No one to spend days off work. No one to make plans with. I understand people have their own lives but I’d like to think if I mean to them as much as they mean to me, they could make time for me once every couple of weeks.

Meeting new people is a struggle for me. Especially right now with how busy I am. Plus after I’ve been burnt all those times, it’s bit hard to trust.

Idk I’m just tired of getting home and having no one to talk to about my day. I’m tired of hearing no from my friends when I try to hangout.