I’m so exhausted from pretending to be the "happy, positive" person in my social circle every single day

Somewhere along the line, I became the friend who always cracks the jokes, lifts everyone's spirits, and brings the high energy to every single hangout. It’s a role I built for myself, but lately, it feels like a heavy mask I can't take off. Last weekend, I was having a genuinely awful day and stayed quiet during dinner, and instead of anyone asking if I was okay, I just got teased for "killing the vibe." It's incredibly lonely realizing people only want to be around you when you're performing