Identifying your own isolation to such a point that u know what caused it and why are u the way u are is such painful.

Since childhood I was a nerd and didn't had much options to explore in anything else as family wasn't able to afford anything. Growing up the situation has gotten better than what it used to be but still not great.

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Now I find myself wanting to do everything coz i never had a chance and realize i am just this way coz i just want to connect with someone over something. Coz being a nerd with introvert is a pain and now it feels like finding anything to connect with someone the only way of having a connection.

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It feels like i dont just have interest in everything but rather its a mechanism by brain set up to find a connection with someone...

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Does anyone wanna advice over it or experienced similar things?

Do let me know....