I now see why there's a higher risk for ADHD ppl to be alcoholic tw: alcohol

From the first time I got drunk to today, I love it. It's good that I can't buy it yet, and that I dont get to depend on it because if I could I might would. It feels like a break and escape from being me, everything feels so much easier and I get to finally relax for a fucking minute. My pills don't do that, it's not fair. And sleeping, going to sleep drunk is soooooo much easier!!! I'm jealous that normal people don't need to get drunk to feel this way, I wish there was a cure for ADHD. Like, when I'm drunk I actually feel normal, and relaxed. But still, drinking regularly isn't a good idea so I won't do that, or depend on that. Only on weekends/celebrations