Hi, I’m an 18 year old. My SPM results in 2025 were 8A+ (teras + BIO FIZ KIM AM) and 1A- (BM)

My dumb ass didn’t even apply for one scholarships. (Please do not beat me up for it any furthur, I’ve already done enough of that to myself.)

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Why did I not apply for any scholarships? Because…

1. I got an A- in my BM, which disqualifies me for a lot of the scholarships.

2. I don’t know what degree I’d want to take.

3. My koku was absolute crap. I didn’t achieve anything. No competitions/contests won, just participation certificates. Highest jawatan I had was as English Society’s secretary. I was a PRS. I volunteered as an admin in a Telegram group for SPM students.

4. I struggle with low self worth and I’m not the best at speaking, so I thought I’m probably not going to make it through the interviews.

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Fortunately, I got my first choice in UPU, which was UKM’s Asasipintar. (For context, in this program, we’ll learn Bio, Phy, Chem and Math.) This program finishes in ONLY ONE YEAR, so I have to get all my ducks in a row in this time period.

My end goal is to get a SCHOLARSHIP for my undergraduate degree after foundation.

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Problem 1: I don’t know what degree to take. Might want to change from Biology to Finance/Accounting stream.

I thought I wanted to be a dentist, but I’m not sure if it’s a right fit anymore. Thankfully, I think I can figure out what degree I want by the end of this foundation. BUT the problem here is what if I don’t want to do anything related to biology/science? Am I wasting my time and energy in a science foundation? What if I want to do finance/accounting? Am I allowed to apply for those finance/accounting degrees?

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Problem 2: How do I get better koku achievements?

I don’t have much achievements to talk about in high school, so to compensate for that, I’ll have to be active in koku at foundation. What are some achievements/jawatans I should aim for? This is gonna be tough for me as I struggle with low self esteem and mild social anxiety, but I want to do it and I want to get better. How do I compete for leadership roles with people who are more “adequate” (extroverted, charming, experienced) than me? How do I even get those leadership roles in the first place? Ask seniors? Ask lecturers?

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Thank you so much for taking the time to read this. I would appreciate any advice!!! 🙏