Wanna share my childhood trauma

Can anyone chat with me I wanna share my dark past I am now 19 boy and i was ra*e in my hostel by my classmate and it's feel me something i off my connection with all my hostel friends because of that now I am lonely also now stay at home only

Plz message me directly someone who really wanna listen with time and understand that not just for.. and plz feel free to message me directly