I got gestational diabetes after hyperemesis… I’m exhausted

I started this pregnancy with hyperemesis gravidarum. I was vomiting constantly, couldn’t eat almost anything, and was miserable for 6 months!! (Somehow I still gained 10 kg lol)

I had the most intense cravings for fruit, especially peaches, and of course I couldn’t find them anywhere because they weren’t in season.

Just when my stomach finally calmed down and I could actually eat again, when my fav fruits got available, when I finally could go to family gatherings without throwing up, and start enjoying my pregnancy a little bit… I got diagnosed with gestational diabetes. 🥲

On top of that, I have very low iron and hematocrit levels, so even walking is difficult because I get dizzy. Forget exercising. Now I’m on a very strict, carefully planned diet.

I just want to eat an ice cream. I want to go to a family dinner and not have to think about every single bite. The other day we had a celebration for my nephew’s baptism, and I couldn’t eat almost nothing (I just got diagnosed so my family didnt know). I ended up crying in the bathroom.

I know it probably sounds silly, but I’m so worried about my baby all the time. I just wanted to enjoy at least one month of my first pregnancy. Sometimes I can’t help feeling sad and disappointed about how hard it has been.