What’s even the point?

I can't take it anymore it's literally prison and punishment for no reason.
Everyone is rude the moment you speak.
You can never be the real you I have to be quiet non stop and watch life get past me while others talk, make friends, build connections ..

I don't understand the point of god creating something like this it's just pure evil and then to give a rude society who thinks the we're dirty.

I think back of the experiment researchers did back in the days, where they had two groups of babies and instructed the moms and caretakers to interact with one and not at all with the other babies.. the babies who got no emotion literally died.
That research is highly criticized today and illegal today.

But we see right here what it does.
It affects all aspects of life: job, school, uni, relationships, friends, love life etc.
This is beyond unfair.
What did we do to deserve this.
What did God even think about creating this and then be mad that we kill ourselves when that's literally natural to do, if you suffer so long.

I have reached my end, I can't take it anymore I wanted to end it a long time ago.
Continuing life just means I have to be forced to watch others have a life and me living miserably.

You won God.

You got what you wanted.

I was only created to live miserably and be stomped over by everyone.
Im nothing more than a cockroach on this earth.

I hope you cure yourself for good and for all.

For me this doesn't make any sense anymore.