Am I entering a complicated and molding episode of my life?

Maybe REAL adult life is at my doorstep.

Even as a young kid I was rather independent. Trying to get my opinion throught and wanting to be taken fairly seriously when needing help. But very often I was met with some negative feedback. Verbal and physical abuse were not uncommon.

As a 15 year old I wished to work in an animation studio even for a ridiculously small income. Just to straighten my path. Understandably, I was a minor so despite all my attempts with sending portfolio and discussions with adults, this was not possible.

When I look back, especially when I moved to Poland at the age of 7, the people closest to me changed from seemingly loving, caring to neurotic and abusive. As much as independence I thought I had I was not invincible. I was sensitive. Still a developing kid. Didn't know how to survive when adults tried to 'put me in my place', suppress me.

Getting to the point:

I had a really bad argument with my family. And it only drives me further away, as much as I love them and and tend to cherish their company. It seems that one of them still can't get over the fact that I'm more opinionated than ever.

I don't want to be toxic to my future family (kids etc) so this time I snapped.

I had been organizing my planned career path prior to today. Now It's high time leaving the enviroment I grew up in. I need it big time.

Do you think that the dynamic is a wake up call? Even if it came rather late?

What would you recommend?

I'm surrounding myself with people who may support me throught this complicated time.

P.S

I battled a very bad health problem in my late teens and it took 10 years to pull throught. My early 20s where agonizing and couldn't cope. Only now I can work, sleep and function.

Saskia