Where to even start

How would you even begin. I've never had a boyfriend. I've never dated in middle school or high school. I've never had those pivotal teenage moments where you make mistakes and begin to experience your firsts. First kiss...First dance...First date..I feel like if I ever got into a relationship now it would be with someone who is way more advanced than me, someone that has already made those mistakes and experienced their firsts already. Things that seem mundane or "just the norm" to some would be so exciting and new to me, and it makes me feel awkward. Like going to the movies and holding hands or having his arm put around me would make me feel so giddy, while to others it's no big deal. Been there done that. Sometimes I feel like I would say the wrong thing or do something awkward and it wouldn't be met with grace, like "don't you know this already," well actually I don't.