existing as a woman in gaming communities

i personally, have tried and tried to post and exist in fandoms i'm in, and find every single time, that any expression of femininity is taken as an immediate threat, or berated and ground down until there is nothing left.

even a screenshot of a character creation screen! I, a woman, used my subconscious and understanding of beauty standards to make a conventionally attractive character, to then make into a cannibalistic raider. because contrast.

but because of the simple fact that i'm a woman, and i made something i was proud of, and had the gall to post and acknowledge i made a good looking character, i must be 100% shot down for it.

i'm not distraught about it, it's just annoying to notice the pattern, every. single. time. even in fandoms where you know you are a bigger fan of than all the people shitting on you. and to add on, my autism enforces this sense of justice so hard! so i just get even more annoyed by the fact of how fundamentally wrong it is that women are treated this way in the first place.