Please 🙏 validate my pain. I need it right now

Hey there, I'm looking for validation of my pain. Because it feels like nobody notices my pain, my therapist is really good but like he rarely says I've made it and I'm amazing for this and I really need validation from someone. What I've been through:

- domestic violence: my parents were violent with each other and once my father broke my mum's arm

- physical abuse: my mother and father used to hit me when I misbehaved as a kid

- emotional abuse: silence treatment from my bff, my mum and my father. My mum trated me as a friend when I was a kid. I took care of my own brother. I took care of my mum when she had depression.

- sexual abuse: when I was 21 my boss touched my private parts. When I was 25 in the psych ward a patient put their to on my mouth.

- neglect: I didn't have emotional safety as a kid. Whenever I had problems I faced them alone.

- bullying: I never had friends because they all made fun of me. I was an outcast.

- social isolation: this is a problem I'm facing even now. I dont have many people around me so fine it's not necessarily a bad thing I'm almost 30 but like when you're a kid it destroys you.

- depression as a teen: when I was 16 I struggled with depression. At 24 I was diagnosed with recurring depression.

- anorexia: I wanted to disappear and I've manifested it through my body.

- social anxiety: I got really anxious when meeting people in general (even the people I was close to)

- anxiety: I had really bad anxiety and still do but I take medication for that

- multiple sclerosis: at 22 I was diagnosed with multiple sclerosis, so I had it for 6 years. Now my main symptom is fatigue I'm on my filth coffee and one ended drink.

- psychotic breakdown: when I found out my family was toxic especially my mum i had a psychotic breakdown. Also when my therapist got covid I felt abandoned so I had another psychotic breakdown.

- dissociation: I had many dissociative symptoms like staring into the void for hours and disconnecting my brain

- obsession: I was obsessed with body movements for 2 years i paid attention to every movement I made I was going crazy

- suicide attempts: 6 in total, once I ended up in intensive care unit

- self harm: from age 25. I ended up in the er many times because of that.

- promiscuous sex: I slept with many people in 2 years and i got scanned for STI.

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So what do you think?