The simple life i wanted no longer feels obtainable

This is literally soul crushing
No money or any prospects to make any decent sum of money

28 yrs old been out of a home for a year and a half been living in my parents living room sleeping on a cot for the past 9 months barely getting by due to being out of work for 3 months

Can’t even consider dating or relationships or companionship for that matter because I can’t afford to do shit and all anybody cares about now adays is how much you can trick off on them and if you can take care of them and fund their lifestyle

My car is breaking down & i can’t afford to fix it or even get a new one

Dont have shit to sell for money definitely don’t have any skills, talent or anything interesting about myself that anybody is willing to pay for

Constantly regretting going to college for IT instead of a trade school cause despite being close to completing my degree i still dont understand anything enough to even try going for an entry level IT job and now ive run out of financial aid to help pay for a trade school so now if i want to redirect my career choices it would be out of pocket like every fucking thing else

My life is a fucking joke & i feel like the biggest loser in the world I tried to do everything right tried to help others just to feel like everything ive done in my adult life was the stupidest decision ever and ill never be able to enjoy anything cause it seems like the rest of my fucking life will be trying to rebuild from my dumb ass mistakes and trying to stay ahead without ever getting ahead.

Not fishing for any sympathy or validation or anything just needed to vent instead of allowing it to fester in my head