I feel stuck, stressed, and I need your advice, please.

Hi everyone, I am writing this because I am very stressed and I need some honest advice. I want to improve myself, learn new skills, and learn languages. I am trying to work online in affiliate marketing to make money. I made my first $80 until now. But I feel like a failure, and this stress stops me from sleeping at night. My situation and problems are very hard: Location and Internet: I live in the countryside (the village), and you know how hard it is here. I have almost no internet. I try to use a VPN to change Social Media data (*6) to normal internet (*3), but it rarely works. No Tools: I do not have a PC, and I do not even have a good phone to work or learn. Money Problem: I made $80, but I do not have a bank account to take my money. Also, high fees will take a lot from this small amount. I see young people around me moving forward, but I am stuck in one place in this isolated village. It is not envy, but I blame myself a lot. I do not know if these problems are real or if I am just making excuses for being lazy. My biggest problem now is my phone. It is my only escape from reality, but it wastes my time. When I want to work, the slow internet stops me. So, I go to Instagram and scroll without thinking. Then, I go back to zero. I really want to stop this. I want to put my phone away, focus, and learn with zero resources in the countryside. How can I build discipline and focus in an environment that does not help?

Thank you for reading, and thank you for your help.