Lost hope at life

Sorry I'm blabbing I'm drunk but sober

. I'm done with my life. Dont worry I'm definitely not thinking of ending it. I can't afford it. My son keeps me going though he too is not loyal to me completely but he does love me in his own way.

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All my personal choices is a mistake. I want to openly admit for once that I am wrong and I'm extremely sorry for all choices I made. I was wrong. I am wrong. I can't handle life by myself anymore.

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I admit my failure completely.

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I just have to hold on until my son becomes independent financially. I can't afford to do anything now.

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I have to suck it up to my job to maintain my useless jobless husband while letting the world believe he's the best.

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My son will break if he knows I failed this life too

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I just want it off my chest that yes I am a failure and yes I made everything mistakes and I'm extremely sorry for it

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I'll hold on

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Sorry tonight incidents were a mess I'm venting and blabbing in multiple subs. Infact created this alt account to be able to openly vent when needed as my original ID is known to real life people

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