I want to say I’m agnostic, but I don’t really know if I am

I’ve reached the point where I don’t identify or moreover want to identify with Christianity. from my understanding agnostic is believing that there may or may not be a God.

I don’t believe in “a God“ necessarily. I do however believe in a higher power, a guiding force. in which I speak on as if it were another person. a person who is, as the phrase “guiding force@ implies, helping to guide me towards fulfilling the purpose of my life and/or helping me be a better/happier person.

do I know if it’s God? no I have no idea. I know it’s there but it could be God, it could just be my consciousness. hell it could be some other thing that I couldn’t even fathom.

i do like the term agnostic though, I think it outlines my uncertainty however since I do believe solidly in “something” I feel as if its not really the best term. I know it’s up to me but I’m curious if anyone has a similar experience and if there is something a little closer to identify with.