How do I forget her if she’s everywhere around me.

Sorry I just need to get this off my chest.

People say to get rid of everything that reminds you of them. But everything in my room reminds me of her. I got everything with her. My room was baron beforehand. And we live in the same small town so everywhere I go reminds me of her too. I don’t know what I should do. I can’t even have fun or enjoy life without her. I feel like I need a companion in order to be happy and myself. When I’m alone I’m just some slob. And I’m cripplingly anxious all the time. It’s storming right now and all I can do is worry about her. I worry she’s not doing good or that she’ll do something. And I’m so anxious that we’ll never speak again. I blocked her on socials and deleted her number so the only way is she initiates. (which I guess is a good thing) And when she checked on me a few days after we broke up I told her that I don’t think we should talk and that it will just make it harder for both of us. “Goodbye” was the last thing we said. She was worried and I pushed her away. I don’t know if I should text her and apologize for pushing her away and tell her I’m also worried or if that would just make it worse for both of us. Sorry I think I’m having an anxiety attack right now and I don’t have anyone to talk to. Sorry for the rant.