not feeling super happy taping... anyone else?

I recently accepted that I may be a trans man based on my past explorations of gender and just how I've been feeling socially versus when I'm alone. I decided taping would be the best option in terms of binding concidering my body shape and I finally bit the bullet a couple of hours ago and taped.

I feel like I don't feel as happy as I should? I feel a little relieved that my chest is less noticeable -- that's been the part of my body that I dislike the most -- but I also kind of just feel sad that it still doesn't look right I guess? Like it's not as flat as I want it and it just looks like a bad imitation of what I want, which is a flat chest.

I was wondering if anyone else felt/feels like this and if anyone has tips for how not to feel like this. Literally crying in front of the mirror as I type this and I just feel like shit :(. Thanks!