I'm back at 23 days after slipping up and buying a cartridge

I had over 6 months under my belt then I got bored and lost self control. I want to want to be sober. On July 8th, it'll be a year since my last drink. I'm pretty good without alcohol. I'm used to it at this point. Doesn't mean it's not a temptation. Just means I've created a new neural pathway for dealing with that particular problem.

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With weed, however, I struggle. In a lot of ways I do better when I smoke. I know it's supposedly worse for your anxiety and mental health to smoke, but for me, it is helpful. Unfortunately I don't have self control. If I start vaping again, I go back to all day everyday. I think if I could just use marijuana once a day or even less often than that, it could be a helpful tool for me unfortunately I have a super addictive personality and can't seem to do anything in moderation.

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At this point I've replaced my weed and alcohol habit with food which is arguably worse for my health as an overweight person. I just seem to need a vice and can't seem to find a healthy one. I've tried going for walks when I want to smoke or drinking a bottle of water to do something quick to connect with the idea of smoking. It doesn't seem to work. It doesn't take away the urge. I want to quit for my kids. They are worth it, but it is tough.