I quit before- for a long time.

This time is so hard. I want to quit for good again. I used to be so done I didn’t even think about it anymore. I had hit a “friends” vape and it sent the cycle going again… was it really this hard last time or is something different. I go like a week and then fail. Or a few days and fail. I threw the vape in the trash at the park earlier and said I’m done but then get recurring thoughts to go get it… gross. I hate Nicotine it doesn’t even do anything good.