I miss how things were

I deal with anxiety and OCD. My anxiety has been bad for the past 4 years, but it’s gotten really bad since 2024 and I miss my routine and how things were back then— not the anxiety and OCD part, just the things that were happening. Last summer, my brother moved out 2 hours away, and I’ve been missing him being around, specifically in January–April 2025 and in August–September 2023 the house has felt empty without him, but my sister moved back home in April after being in Colorado for a few years, so her being around makes me feel a bit better. I still deal with anxiety, especially health anxiety and OCD and have been since summer 2024 in 2022 and 2023 I had only dealt with anxiety, but only for
a couple of months before feeling calmer; but since 2024 I’ve been in a higher state. Sorry if this makes no sense just want to get this off my chest