Deactivated my old youtube channel to create a new one that will Idenrify me and my hobby which is gaming

I am turning 35 in 2 days . I have created a youtube channel mostly on dota and tennis (beginner) and i do not found success on it. I know gaming videos are super saturated nowadays but I still want to create one but is mostly finishing my backlogs as I have work and adukt money but no time to finish a game. I hope my channel works or if not at least I have finished(hopefully) and put more checks on my games. My old youtube channel my partner got offended I have put out a vlog for our new property I mentioned her a lot that it took more effort with paperworks emails but I did not mention that mostly financial was hers as she put a lot on our downpayment for the mortgage. She wants to let my family and my friends know that without her it is not possible for me to even buy a property (but I shared a lot as well but it is mostly on furnitures, internet, groceries,etc) sorry for the rant. I want my youtube channel to grow secretly as she does not believe in me, she even sent me a link that shows how to grow subs instantly but I do not want it. I want my subscribers with same interest as me. Okay thats it sorry for the rant again. Goodluck to us all!