I'm addicted to buying clothes and jewelry for an ex whose body im infatuated with

Some 7 years ago I used to go out with this girl, she was very dominant, she always tried really hard to knock me out with her thighs but never could, she would trample me ruthlessly, she once had an online class and had me between her thighs with her laptop on my head choking me while she spoke in class, it was an incredibly fun time 

We broke up after a while, and i did not handle it too well, leaving her without alot of the closure and support she wanted, and we reconciled a long while after due to my many apologies and playlists 

When she broke up with her partner, we spoke actively about getting back together for a hookup, etc, it never worked, and now that I'm working a new job and getting paid well, I thought, fuck it, I'm gonna buy her clothes

It started out with a 100$ order from cherrykitten, she got them, sent some pictures, and since has totally ignored me, no replies on any platform, no attention whatsoever, even to me gushing over her pictures immediately after she sent them, 2 weeks after I asked her a colour preference for another gift, and then some messages asking jokingly if she's ignoring me bc she hates me or on a kink thing or her actually being busy 

No reply

And what did I do? 60 euro Zara order, 30$ Etsy waist chain order, I caved, and i don't even know if this was her intention, or if I'm just in too deep that I'm starting to attach kink to her business

Either way, we're down the rabbit hole now boys