hi lol

I was hospitalized and I've had the urge to do it ever since... I blocked myself. I talked to him today and he doesn't love me anymore because I cut myself. He doesn't feel anything for me. I'm fed up with living, I feel awful, everything is going badly for me, and I've been with him for four years. I'm addicted to porn and nobody loves me.

What's the point of this fucking shitty life? I've always been praised for being intelligent, but the more I learn, the more my stomach clenches and the more I want to die. I'm getting more depressed every day.

I want to vomit, I like to vomit... and I just want to either die or for someone to come and cover me in all kinds of disgusting things.

I'll keep you updated on my plans. Kisses and hugs.

Haha, ever since I was little I've always wanted to have a blog.