I fucked up with my girlfriend and I told a friend of mine that I wasn’t supposed to them tell about our sex life M/15 F/15

So I’ve been seeing this really nice girl and she’s been amazing. I’m not saying names of privacy reasons or even my name it’s already pathetic enough that I’m asking Reddi about my love life so I just wanna keep things personal anyway me and her had a lot of things in common. We both like drinking our schools were near each other. I was in a boys school she was in a girls school and my grandmother‘s place, which is right beside my girlfriend’s school so I got to see her a lot over the month we both learnt quickly that we both wanted to have sex she’s had it before and I never done it so I was excited to do it and we were really close and we got on really well so I got my good friend who is 18 to buy me condoms. He told me how to use them. and to make sure that it’s on properly because I didn’t wanna get her pregnant anyway we did it and It felt really nice. like I understand why people love doing it it is really nice when you get someone who is like-minded like you who trust you into showing their body to you and that trust is very important anyway I was going to Spain with my mother to see my older sister and this friend that I was friends with for a good time now I will name them Jessica that will be their name for the story I told them about my milestone about losing my virginity and I thought my girlfriend saying to Me I guess this is something good. You can show off to your friend who I will call Sam but I didn’t want to say anything because I knew Sam would be uncomfortable with the topic about sex so I thought Jessica would be more comfortable which while she was very shocked that too 15-year-old did it it was like that one cut away in Family Guy where the two Christians talked to each other and the one goes bazooka’s doing something slightly different in their religion. That’s what their reaction was. anyway I told Jessica obviously don’t just tell my girlfriend oh you too had sex so I didn’t want her to just start spewing that out. I just wanted to show her my milestone and see if she would be proud of Me but a few days go by I see my girlfriend twice visiting her when she’s studying for a big test and it’s really nice seeing her and I had a drink with her she told me to get alcohol and I did because she was wanting to just drink and then on Friday I sent her a text saying good luck on the exams. with a love heart because I want to show my full support for her cause I cared for her but she was cross with me and I didn’t know yet the weekend goes by and this Monday my friend Jessica text me and says to me I will say my name is David for the story and she said David our friendship could be done if you’re not honest with me I panicked and I was like oh fuck what happened because we’ve had problems before where I’ve lied to her and I’ve done stupid things and drama happened last year where I said something pretty dodgy to a girl and she wasn’t happy with me for saying that dodgy thing I’ve realised it was a stupid thing I said I didn’t mean it anyway but that was last year and I lost a lot of friends cause of it she told me my girlfriend when we were having sex was she shaking and crying? Now I did not add this detail about this story between me and my girlfriend is my girlfriend is a victim of rape. It is sad I know and I was very upset knowing that she was a victim of such a tragic thing and I feel terrible knowing that Some people go true that anyway I told her the truth I said to her yes that did happen and I told her I told my girlfriend that we can stop. We don’t have to have sex. I wanted her to feel safe with me and i was willing to stop, but she said no, and she just needed a minute. I hugged her. I had my hand on her side of the cheek to show her comfort because I’ve hugged her. I’ve done that many times and she was distressed over the month cause of things. Jessica said okay and she was like you two should definitely sort it out and I was like absolutely I will so I was talking to Sam about the situation and he was like yeah to be honest man you shouldn’t of told Jessica about that cause Jessica isn’t trustworthy of telling those sort of secrets and I realised yeah she isn’t and he was like you should definitely go sort it out so I try meet my girlfriend stupidly when she was taking a break from her exams so I was only causing her more stress like a dumbass I found her eating a roll outside a gas station across from the school that I usually go to get milk for my grandmother and before I can say anything not even the word sorry for telling Jessica about our business it was none of her business she left and told me to please go away I was really upset by this. I never felt more stupid and more annoyed with myself that I could be losing a really nice girl because my own stupidity I shouldn’t of told Jessica about me and my girlfriend‘s business. I thought when she told me that I could show off to Sam, I thought that was her saying I can tell someone but it wasn’t of course you wouldn’t want anyone your partner to tell anyone about your sex life. and I’m so mad with myself anyway it’s been five days and it’s been a week since my girlfriend hasn’t talked to me and I’m already seeing the effect that’s happening. Two of my friends Sam and another friend have shown anger the friend that I’ll call Annabelle told me to go fuck myself and Sam‘s text I haven’t read cause I’m too scared. I think Jessica is getting in between me and my relationship and is putting poison to my good friends and my own girlfriend and at this point I don’t even know what to think of Jessica, but it’s not her fault. It is my fault as well for telling her such private stuff anyway this is way long enough so I should probably end it here. I don’t really know about me and my girlfriend. I don’t think she’s texting me. I don’t think she’s gonna come back to me and I’m quite upset because she was really beautiful and special and nice and smart and funny and pretty and gorgeous and I am nothing but a dumbass that she loves or used to I just don’t know what to do