Feeling as if I don’t belong anywhere

Hey! I was just coming on here because I’m feeling as if I don’t belong anywhere. Job wise (just in general also) I feel like I can’t even do my job like everybody else, sometimes I hate being autistic I guess, like I don’t want to be normal I just don’t want to feel like this I’m just in a low spot rn I guess. I’ll probs be ok in like an hour just hits harder sometimes than others. If anyone is willing to give me encouragement of want to share their story I would love to hear,thank you.