I want my innocence back

I feel like i need to break up with my girlfriend but im terrified no one will love me again
She has crossed boundaries with me and made me do things i didn’t wanna do. Touched me and do things to me i didnt want to. Or if i said no she would ask until i said yes or sometimes do it anyways. And sometimes i would initiate makeout sessions which would lead us to do more than that ifykyk.
I felt so uncomfortable most of the time. And all i could think was “when will this end” i couldnt sleep at night because i would just cry and tremble. My heart sometimes would beat fast because i was scared of her. I know i seem weak but sometimes i just wanna feel loved and i know i will never find any love out there.
She claimed to respect my boundaries but she completely forgot about that, im pretty sure. I cant get those thoughts out of my head. They haunt me, of all the things she did to me and things she wants to do. I miss when i knew nothing
I was so innocent ☹️
I was so hapoy☹️
I was just enjoying life ☹️
But thats pretty much it. We’ve only been together for 5 months