i want to escape my extremely religious household and i do NOT know how to.

ok ok so what's happening is that im an exmuslim and i live in a STRICT religious household and im scared af, and yes im very sure abt not wanting to be in this religion anymore, aanddd the thing is my parents are extremely religious and they made it clear to me that i cannot move out on my own unless i get married, which I'd rather die then doing it, orrr i move to study abroad WITH a mahram (ex: my brother or dad) and both of them are pieces of shit, not to mention i cant even wear what i want or go where i want without my parents making it seem like it's the end world, while guys that are younger than me do whatever shit they want cuz apparently being a man makes u able to do whatever shit u want while girls are locked up for no reason, it's suffocating, not to mention my parents clearly want me to get married after i finish college, which as i said i am NOT doing marriage. so I've made my choice that i want to escape whenever i can, BUT i do not know how to save money (i don't have a bank acc, and I've tired EVERYTHING to make one but it either doesnt work or isnt available in my country, and yes paypal does not work for me) plus i dont have anyone that would help me irl, and i literally have no knowledge abt what to do if i ever actually escaped, so pleasee whatever u know tell me all abt it. BUT here's the thing, despite my parents, and my overall household, being the most shitty people I've met in my life, i am still quite attached to my parents, tho now I'm starting to truly hate my dad after realising that he is never gonna change, but my mom on the other hand has a little hope that atleast she is gonna understand me and let me be (although that is very less likely) and i still love her so i need tips on that.oh and my country is really and is an islamic country,which idk if it affects but it might. soo i think thats all i can say, and if u are willing to help then thanksss!:)