Letter to my...whatever we'd be called lol

Break up

Im f36 he's m36. 8 years. Kinda engaged.

I had to. I wish it weren't this way.

I'm so sorry it has to be final, final. I think we both knew it was a gonna happen sponer than later. I just have the knowlesge now t hat i truly do care and lkve you but i have been out of love feeling for a long time. Idk how you handles me. I applaud you. Im so impressed by you every day. Know that you are AND will be part of my family, and they and I am here for ever. I think you know but. You're still like, invited to all holidays preemptively. Never even question it. And ny ma prob could use a post-work coffee chat if ya ever wanna just visit. She does love you and it means a lot to her. You became fanily the first time ypu walked in the door. I am sorry for what I've done to you. Im sorry. I do care deeply fpr you. You deserve ao nuch more and we both know this. I cant do this wnd i despwratelt needed this past monrh to do my final...idk evaluationod the relationship?. Just like you hon, I have so many goals, and i just feel like, I nees to plan my life now or never and fully move. I love you hun. Thank you for being a fascinating, emotionally intelligent, pateint, thoughtful, strong, devoted, amazing man you are. I will talk more after i can fully accept it's... oof. Love you im so sorry. im ao sorry I've heard you crying since (each time too - observation not judgemental at all) i told you each time about the other previously involved that made me see this. It was more real than i thought and if i feel like that then what more is to come? Unfair for you, babes. Now i just have to adjust the plan, but we know my adhd ass is actually good at that. Just me. And the animals ill be getting as i held off on that for the reason i wont bring up again til youre ready, thoufh you know i just cant continue knowing theres someone out there for me like that. Take solace in that?i love you. I'll come talk soon. Xo ypure amazing and beaitiful im so sorry