How to know if you are doing the right things?

I’m a first year teacher who just had their worst class period of the year. In this class I have one student who has cursed me out, told me that I’m trying too hard and, that I don’t know how to do my job almost every day. I have been ignoring them all year but today other students, who have been amazing all year, started saying similar things. They have also just decided they didn’t have to listen to me anymore anymore because I’m just a teacher. All while this other student was telling them that they were doing the right thing.

The thing that really got to me was that when talking with these students one on one, they still said it. Even though the student who started all of this couldn’t hear or see them. I have shown up every day and tried to do the right thing and at the end of every hard day, I could always tell myself that. But today this just kinda broke that mindset, maybe I haven’t been doing enough, maybe I have been making their lives harder for no reason and maybe I’m not making a positive difference.

I know that one students goal is to get me to feel like this. But the other students, who have been amazing all year, saying stuff like that, just makes it so much more real. I don’t know how to wrap up this post and I don’t know why I even bothered making it, I think it’s finally gotten to me. I don’t know how to finish the year or even deal with Monday.