I have no worth.. i am worthless peace of shit

So I was just a shy boy. I had never talked to a girl in my life until my college days. I completed college without really speaking to girls. I was chill and used to enjoy my life.

Then came the time when I joined a coaching where I met a girl from my college. We had never talked earlier, only seen each other's faces. I started talking to her a lotshe satrted the convo. I never knew how to talk to girls.she taught me everything. I never texted her first. I used to think that if I irritated her, she would stop talking to me. I took care of her, and she seemed to have an interest in me.

We talked a lot, and she shared everything with me. When coaching ended, we went back to our respective places but continued talking. We told each other about our days, chatted till 2 a.m., and sometimes had phone calls till 5 a.m. She seemed interested throughout this time.

This went on for about a year. She had a boyfriend who used to ignore her and not pay much attention to her. I helped her with her studies, and she used to talk to me whenever she felt bad. She shared everything with me. Even then, I prayed for her happiness and hoped things would work out between her and her boyfriend.

About a year ago, she felt that talking to me this much while being in a relationship was like cheating on her boyfriend, so she reduced our conversations. I was actually happy with that because I thought she would get along with her boyfriend

Our conversations became less frequent, but every day I looked for her texts and waited for her messages. She would still text me after a few days, and we would chat for a few hours before going silent again.

I really liked her, but I decided not to bother her. I just kept praying for her happiness.

Then, two months ago, she had a breakup. She told me about it after a few days. I tried taking care of her, but she said, "Mujhe akela rehna hai." Later, she found a new guy who was tall, fair, and had a good job. She is currently texting him and gives very little attention to me.

I still wait for her texts. I cry daily, but I never bother her. I accepted everything. I told her about my feelings, and she said she would never have feelings for me. She told me that I should continue being her friend. She said I was not special to her, just a friend.

It hurts. It hurts a lot,i cry i wait for her text.. i will never love someone i cant force her to choose me but... i feel devasted broken depressed no selfworth