Suddenly feeling so happy all the time ever since turning back to God

2 weeks sober!!!!

I have been surrendering my will to Jesus daily and nightly, and telling him I surrender that will so he can use me as a vessel of God, to be associated with his name. Same prayer is said for my parents and my pets. So that all of us despite me being in a one bedroom apartment with my 3 cats and my parents retired far away that no matter the miles and distance, God/Emmanuel is with us.

Praying this constant prayer of surrender has allowed me to shed and weep beautifully bitter but sweet as honey tears and I am so grateful.

I am someone with mental health/addiction challenges and after 7 days of constant daily and nightly surrender I am starting to finally feel like myself and wow, Jesus really does save. I never understood this phrase of how he saves until He really started to save a lost sinner like myself.

I am not worthy of God's forgiveness and always feel selfish opening myself up to pray to Him. But that is where God will always find it in his heart to forgive. I was born 4 and a half months early gestation, many medical issues as a newborn, disabilities and then later mental health/addictions and am always like, man, who am I to ask God of anything when I've gotten this far?

I guess I am just living proof of what a carpenter from Nazareth can do. He is such a good father.

God bless

Thank you Bill W!!