My family is awkward

How do I ask for forgiveness from my parents?

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I am not close with my parents. I just have a casual relationship with them, that's it. We live under the same roof yet we don't talk unless it's necessary.

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There are so many reasons behind our awkward relationship. We are all equally at fault. And my parents know that very clearly.

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Problem is, their mistakes don't get highlighted as much as my shortcomings.

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It just ends in one line. "Parents know the best for their child and all they do is good for their children."

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I figured that I will apologise first and then slowly I will make them realize their mistakes and how we can overcome them together. However, I tried so many times and I wasn't able to form a single sentence. Whenever I look at my mother and try to apologise, I get nervous.

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It's not that I am afraid of her. It's just that I am afraid that she won't listen to my words.

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This is what happens everytime I try to apologise.

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As for my mother the difficulty level is 3 stars.

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And for my father I would say it's 7 stars.

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Please give me some advice.