whatever this is

just wanted to let it out here, that i finaly blocked him everywhere, and deleted everything about him as well. Soon i hope i’ll be able to let go of the things from him as well. Just one at a time, until i’m fully ready to let it all disappear from my life. Letting go isn’t easy. Because once it’s all gone, i’m afraid i won’t remember his eyes anymore. His voice, how he looks like, how his warmth felt like. It will all just pass by, like a dream you just forgot one day. But i guess this is what healing feels like. To be able to let it all go, and just keep it in your memory, in your heart, until the day your own existence would fade away as well.