I think my abusive ex may have had BPD, and now I wonder if I have traits too. I fear I have bpd

My ex and I had a very chaotic relationship for years. He would love bomb me, then suddenly cheat. After breakups he would call me hundreds or even thousands of times. He was extremely jealous, drank heavily, used weed, punched or threw things when angry, and once tried to choke me. He would tell me I was the worst person in the world, then act normal later like nothing happened. He rarely apologized and acted very differently around other people than he did with me. he said I was the crazy one with bpd.

Since leaving that relationship, I’ve noticed a lot of things in myself too. I have intense fears of being abandoned or replaced, get suspicious that people are upset with me, need a lot of reassurance in relationships, and can become very emotional when I think someone is pulling away. I also struggle with nightmares, insomnia, and memories of past relationships and traumatic experiences.

The confusing part is that I don’t know if I have BPD traits, cPTSD, anxious attachment, or some combination of them. A lot of BPD symptoms resonate with me, but so do trauma symptoms.