And the reason why I asked about people who want to join the company today cuz I figure hey I might as well Do something productive just something to my grandfather always just say he said do something productive and to learn something new everyday that's something he always said and so I figure I just go ahead and hey go at it just do walk you been saying as far as the husband he would want me to be happy Do you want me to not stress as much and he'll want me to not be upset about anything which is why I'm decided today to do both and memory of both of them you know I'm that's all I can do but also there's someone that you know who has my heart and he knows that is He will always have my heart and only thing I can say is he knows I love them but I'm going to do all I'm going to do is just basically just say hey I love him he's stubborn and stuff but yeah I do love them Tommy you know I do so but as far as everybody else all I can say is exist from the past people from that those who just basically said it can't understand what they feel I'm not worried about that no more those days of me over with If you can't understand what you're feeling or what afraid or your feelings then all I say is is that I know what I feel and right now the only thing I feel right now is yeah nostalgia love and my heart relaxing not stressing about nothing and just taking things as is in terms of life right now Just trying to do the right thing and keep pushing forward not trying to deal with any pain or any pressure or anything like that Just one piece of mind a piece of heart peace and my soul that's it so anything else or not dealing with no drama no negativity and that's it

Yeah well for those that don't know today is my anniversary my wedding anniversary my real life wedding anniversary and today is also the same day that my grandfather passed away Meaning the day anniversary with my grandfather passed away So yeah but I'm just So I'm just editing.