It’s hard being a straight looking queer

I like both genders but no one would guess that because I look straight, I act straight & I’ve only had boyfriends. I’m comfortable with my sexuality but I’ve only mentioned it a handful of times after I came out so no one knows I go both ways yk? Even friends I’ve known for years are still like “YOU like girls?” 😭 it’s funny at times & I make jokes about it too but it’s also sad, no girl will look at me the way I want her to look at me simply because she won’t think I want her to look at me like that yk? Doesn’t help that I like femme too :( every girl I met who is my type is either straight or likes masc 😭😭 atp I might have to wear a shirt that says “I love girls” omg 😞