I have a vanilla boyfriend but miss serving dominant men

Pretty much the subject. It's just a confession and something I will delete in 30 min, lol. I don't even know what I get out of posting it other than alleviating the tension and secrecy maybe.

My boyfriend is great. I don't think it's long term but we're a good match for now and where we are in our lives. But I would love to have to occasionally sneak away to remind some "other", more dominant man how much I secretly appreciate control, patriarchy, power and dominance. I appreciate it in general and how those kinds of men carry themselves. But also privately in relationship dynamics.

The world actually needs it and I know a lot of women secretly respect it.

Obviously I understand all this conceptually. In practice, my lizard brain wants to suck dick as an acknowledgement of it. :P

I don't meet a lot of men with that dynamic, but it's nice to find an outlet here on a rare occasion. Are you that kind of man? Have you ever had a devoted cocksucker cheat on their boyfriend in private?