the audacity of moving THAT fast

i just want to vent. it’s been a few weeks since me and my ex-gf broke up, and somehow i still keep hearing news about her. then i found out na yung ex fling niya? they got back to each other just a week after we broke up. honestly, i don’t even know what to feel anymore. one thing i’m sure of i’m not jealous. i just feel a mix of emotions, mostly disgust and disappointment. seeing that girl post my ex on her tiktok account made me feel sick to my stomach.

like damn, kakabreak lang natin, may iba na agad? no respect at all? at this point, it honestly feels like emotional cheating already, kasi habang ako dito trying to fix myself, trying to move forward and process everything, siya may iba na agad? ang bilis naman. was i that easy to replace? or kailangan ba talaga ng ibang tao agad just to feed her ego? the audacity is actually insane.

i’m here dealing with the pain, fixing myself piece by piece, tapos siya out there having a good fucking time with her ‘trash girl’ like nothing even happened. maybe what hurts the most isn’t even the fact na may bago it’s how fast it happened, like what we had meant nothing at all.