Need someone to talk to

I'm 18M, I know really well everyone is gonna ignore me because I'm a male.

I have a lot of things on my mind and i feel depressed and it feels like i have too much on my mind and i just want to share it with someone and free up. I've been searching for a relationship with a girl but I end up getting broken in the end, it happened 5 times since May-June 2025 till this date