I badly need help or any advice!

This is a very serious rant, maybe too explicit than the usual posts Ive seen here, and i need help or any advices ASAP! I will just inform everyone that I’m new and i don’t know much about reddit as this is also my very first post, so please be kind. ⚠️Trigger warning: mentions of >!rape!< or sexual abuse⚠️

As a 17 year old girl struggling with both mental and physical issues, lately i have been spiraling back into deep depression. Im a >!rape!</SA victim since i was 5-6 years old by a family member and it only ended when we had to move away, ever since then i have struggled with constant self harm, suicidal thoughts, multiple physical and mental illnesses. These caused me internal & bladder issues, constant nightmares, intense scopophobia, and lead me to be incredibly self destructive my entire childhood until to this day which also lead me to losing some friends and losing contact with certain family members.

I have tried consultations but i got too afraid that if i told too much of everything explicit i had experienced they will be required to report it to the authorities. Does anyone have the same experience? If so, will they actually report it because i heard that they aren’t allowed to keep informations like these private. If no, what should i do? I badly need help. Until now I’m still too scared to talk about it with therapists due to the same reason. Can anyone help me or advise me on what i should do?