so.. whats one of your most common coping mechanism?

i feel ashamed each time i have to explain mine. i know its common? but, i feel like a monster when i still do it.
i use arrogance a lot and attention seek (wow.) but i always try keeping it to myself even tho it always shows half the time. im still in school and all the other teens dont like me because of my mean look. i admit, i was trying to appear intimidating because i was scared of being made fun of. but i ACTUALLY look pathetic. i dont know how it worked? maybe its my height. (its a normal height.. im 170cm..) theres rumors around me that im a criminal and if you managed to befriend me everyone would suddenly hate you. but honestly, im okay with it. most people ive met treated me horribly. avoided is better than being pushed around, for me at least. if i have to do pathetic insults, look harshly at others, and do some ridiculous poses while sitting down just to not go throught it again. it will stay that away. as for the attention seeking, that is towards my friends, the topic? something about me. what will we do? listen to me. where are we going? to my house to listen to me talk all over again.
sorry if this is corny lol im just looking for someone i can relate to or a textwall i can read