Do I want to be with guy or be a guy?

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To put it simply: I created an image of my "dream boyfriend" in my head, and until then, I thought I wanted to find such a person and fall in love. But over time, the boundaries blur, and sometimes I'd like to be that man. Interact with people as him, live life in general. I'm still not sure, though, because the feeling lasts for a while and then fades a bit when I focus on other things in life. There are also days when I feel comfortable being a woman, but then suddenly this feeling comes over me, and I suddenly feel strange, like I'm living a life that's not my own. Like something's wrong.

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My friend said that maybe this image of the person in my head is so perfect that I'm drawn to him because, as humans, we naturally strive for improvement. I'm not sure, though, because even tho he's my dream person, he still has flaws and imperfections. There are days when I imagine a love life with this guy, and then suddenly THIS comes over me. What do you think?