Here's some context, I am autistic, in therapy and in the process of getting diagnosed with DID.


My mother is convinced I do not care about her because I hardly speak to her. I go mute when nervous and I dont know how to force myself to speak around her. I dont know how to care like a nerotypical person. I try to suppress any emotions around her because it ends up like this if i have any emotion at all.

 My mother brought my cat to the vet, and I woke up to the message about switching cat food and giving her free access to cat food. I strongly disagree with free access to cat food because she is already overweight.

 I am not going to say that to her because I can hardly speak to her properly. I told her to "get the cat a new home." She was already talking about doing that the last couple days. I love my cat but all it will become is stress for me once my mother is involved.​

 She replied telling me to "re evaluate my world, and that I don't care at all" I do care and was already crying at that point about losing my cat and the situatuon with my mom. I am struggling right now so badly that I cannot have more on my plate with stress.


She refuses to speak to me and try to come to an understanding because "i will never get it" and asked me to post on reddit.


Am I completely in the wrong for asking her to help me understand why she is upset? And for me I feel like this is a complete miscommunication, is it even possible to get to a point where I will 100% just become able to understand social things and feelings.  Does she understand what autism even is?

 I am not using it as an excuse I was using it as a reason as to why she needs to explain. I understand i could have been nicer but her messages were extremely hurtful with 'excuses'​. I lost my cool and that's on me

Advice on how to fix whatever just happened with my mother, and make sure I does not happen agian?