I'm sad

I live in a Middle Eastern country.

When I was a child, my father used to beat me, and home was always a terrifying place for me. I still carry a lot of trauma from it. I come from a very religious family, and they make my life difficult. My parents got divorced, and my mother is still depressed.

I don't even have a proper bed, and my desk is over 20 years older than I am. I'm ugly, and I hate my voice.

I experience hallucinations, I self-harm, and I've attempted suicide twice, along with a number of other issues.

I don't have anything special about me—no talents, no good qualities.

I love electric guitar. After saving money for a very long time, I finally managed to buy one last year: a cheap $90 guitar.

I can't find a job. Nobody loves me. Every relationship I've ever had was with unhealthy, dishonest, or unfaithful people.

Please don't be mean to me