I’m ruining everything

I’m traumatized by last summer. I thought I had breast cancer (thank God, no) and my daughter’s face ERUPTED. Out of nowhere. This was a major trigger for me because I had horrible cystic acne for years. I was told “eczema caused by a possible sun allergy.” ?? So now, I’m like a psycho whenever she goes in the sun. I don’t want to act like this. I don’t want to be this person. I used to be fun and carefree, not an anxiety-riddled mess. I stare at her face and grill her. I’m causing more damage than her skin. I can’t overcome it. I’m
so tired of this. I should’ve never even bothered, I have too much of my own baggage!!