Acceptance

This is just an add on to a previous post where I mentioned that I've been struggling to gain for 6 years and have basically given up.

I don't like being a downer or venting my frustrations to people that have much more success than me but It's kinda peaceful to talk about it here on reddit where people will actually see, respond and actually try to help me.

I think it's time that I unfortunately truly stop trying. I'll continue to eat how I usually eat but everyone keeps giving me the same advice and it doesn't work. I'm not good with thick liquids, overly sweet things, bitter things, tasteless things or godforbid all of the above. I've tried cake shakes twice and both times I almost managed to throw up trying to finish them to properly get the bloat.

I really REALLY want to continue but my last resort involves getting money from people and most people of this feitsh look down on that heavily and rightfully so. Gain your own way using your own money. Which I unfortunately don't have. I live with family, I don't get money unless the government gives it to me and every option everyone gives me is not viable in my current situation

I've tried looking for feeders near Toronto and nothing. Finding feeders outside of Toronto has been nothing but radio silence after a few days. Out of my 6 years I only have 10-11 pounds to show for it and I find that heavily disappointing and discouraging. I'm tired of waiting and trying and getting nothing and complaining about it constantly. Nothing is working and it's to the point where I'm becoming extremely desperate to the point where it might aswell be dangerous.

230lb is my highest goal and I think it'll stay that way for a while. It's been fun “gaining” but I think it's time to call it quits.