Shattering my ability to finish, to have a normal sex life, to be normal.

I don’t think I can cum anymore.

I’ve been on that trajectory for a bit with my dom. Encouraged to touch all the time, to fry my brain with dopamine. He encouraged me to never hold back and cum as much as I wanted and it was so good.

I now realize it was very smart. It started to get harder and harder for me to cum. When I realized, I didn’t want to stop because it felt too good. I traded a biological ability for a few seconds of pleasure.

In addition to no longer being able to cum, I’m not allowed to look at real porn. Censored porn, and anything cartoon, and erotica to my heart’s content. But not full real people nudity. I’m too much of a beta boy for that.

I’m humping my wand, looking at censored porn, throbbing at the fact that I think I’ve lost my ability to cum. Literally fried my brain with too much dopamine.