Birthday and holidays

We spent here birthday in 2024 together and that Christmas (which she started a fight Christmas Eve and Christmas Day). She discarded me a few days before my birthday in 2025 over literally made up reasons and acted truly disgusting. Text me right before my birthday and said she wished she’d got to do everything she planned for my birthday then blocked me before I could even respond.

She came back 4 months later claiming to not have talked. Hung out with, or slept with any guys. She ridiculed me for having conversations with other females in that time period. I didn’t go on any dates or have any desire to do so. A week after all the insults and ridicule she randomly told me she went to a bar and happened to bump into one of her ex bf. They had a few drinks and she was worried about driving so she crashed at his place. Swore up and down, kicking, Screaming, crying that she did not have any type of sexual contact with him.. she became insane and manipulative when I simply asked for the guts first name. She refused saying that she was single at the time and it’s non of my business. (This is coming from someone that went through 15 years of my social media messages. Went through my phone everyday, and has literally just got done ridiculing me for having basic conversations with females.

Her behavior after she came back was worse than before. I believe she came back just because she seen me happy and working hard, not completely destroyed. She had came back in time for her Birthday of 2025 then discarded me before Christmas because I had reach out to her mom for advice on what I needed to do. She showed up acting demonically possessed and truly evil. That alone gave me PTSD.

Have not spoken since other than paragraphs not long after of her flipping the script and literally accusing me of everything she ACTUALLY did. Everything was a lie though. Her feelings, morals, values, dreams, virtue. She never was loyal, honest, faithful, virtuous, genuine… it was all a lie from the start.

Here it is almost my Birthday , 6 months no contact and I have to tell myself everything she has done to not lose my mind loving her. I don’t want to love her, or desire her presence but I believed she was the one and I sacrificed so much that I can’t fully believe the truth and succeed in detaching from her.

Spent 2 of her birthdays with her, 1 Valentine’s Day, 2 halloweens, 1 Easter, 2 thanksgivings, 1 Christmas..

All the money and time spent on trying to provide her good holidays and birthdays and she never once did anything for my birthdays when all I wanted was her presence and love.. she stole one of my brand new Groove belts to gift to someone for Christmas. She burnt and threw away all the gifts I had got her over the length of time we were together.

Oh yea and the flowers I sent her after the first break up which cost $150 were “manipulation flowers, not her favorite flowers, etc…”. The bouquet that I was trying to get her was sold out and the flower place told me they would try to match it close.

Form the start Nothing i ever did meant anything to her. My feelings didn’t matter at all unless i was upset then i was attacked for being upset. All the good I did never truly was acknowledged it usually was called manipulation , my happiness was a target of destruction.

She has behaved this way since she was 15 in relationships. Almost identical words in her social media posts, same victim narratives, same projections… I just can’t believe I trusted her more than anyone, loved her more than I even thought was possible.. I stuck by her and felt sorry for her while she was destroying me..

She’s the most disingenuous, dishonest, immoral person I believe she ever had in my life. The total inversion and reverse of everything she claimed to be and everything she claimed to stand for.

Here’s to another birthday alone🍺.. it’s always Halloween for her and she will always be a teenager 👺🎭