Is something wrong with me?

M27 here. I was in a relationship where I would ask my ex to do naughty things for me. She didn’t liked it at first but i think it grew on her. I would ask her to take videos of herself masturbating in public spaces (dressing room, mall cr, and etc). I think it grew to become her kink to the point that she would park her car along a semi-busy street and would touch herself and film it for me. Now that we aren’t together anymore, i’m craving for that thrill. The thrill of ordering someone and would just do it. Is it weird?